Before we start, Here’s an invitation, into my mind and my past:
“If I was worthless beforehand, how pathetic am I now? I couldn’t even kill myself.”
Waking up in hospital two weeks after trying to end my life, I had never hated myself more.
Laying in the bed, I wore a neck brace, casts on both arms, boots on both legs, and had many tubes going through my body.
Being transferred daily from one medical procedure to the next, felt torturous, “Why was I still here?”
Though, all the broken bones and extreme pain didn’t seem to matter much. I realised I couldn’t feel or move anything below my rib cage. I couldn’t even sit up…
Those same thoughts and feelings I had before my injury were still there (only amplified by the fact that I “failed” at the one thing I wanted to do). The only difference was that I had acquired 35 new injuries. The most severe of them was my complete spinal cord injury.
Doctors and Professionals told me it was impossible to regain any sensation or function below there because I had severed my spinal cord at the lower thoracic.
If I was struggling before I attempted suicide, that only felt like suffering afterwards.
“Why is all this happening?” I was left with no hope.
You know, I look back on it all, and as dark and painful as that time was, I can’t help but say how blessed I am. With the right guidance and decisions I made, I not only bounced back from that hardship but now am taking things beyond where I or anyone else would’ve thought possible…
No matter who you are or what you’ve been through, I now see hope for everyone.
This is my example: Transforming hope through action.
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